Wanting too much in life is toxic for the mind when you allow yourself to be someone you aren’t. Insecurity can ruin sanity and relationships. However, it will always and forever depend on how a person treats it. Contentment is key, acceptance as well.

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If there’s something that I highly value besides faith and family, it would most definitely be friendship. Being with people that I treat as my own sisters and brothers, life has been entirely incredulous because of them.

There are no perfect relationships, that’s a fact for sure. May it be with yourself, with God, with your own family and obviously with your own friends. Through the mistakes you encounter with yourself and with them, you learn how to be better. You learn how to endure with everything that is thrown to you. There are days when you’re forced to deal with black moments as you reach the heavier edge of things. That is when your emotions gets messed up when vulnerability and sensitivity strikes.

It’s easier to accept negative comments from strangers compared to receiving it from someone close to you. It’s easier to see a stranger change compared to seeing someone close to you change. It’s not that they CAN’T say anything against you nor CHANGE to someone that saddens you.

It’s life. We get HURT, we get AFFECTED. But most of all, WE CARE.

Not everyone will understand you if you face the “near to hate” phase towards someone when things mess up. Not that you need approval from people to tell you what you’re feeling is admirable or disgraceful. It’s just that, it’s easier when you realize, you’re not the only one going through shit.

After all these that I’ve been going through, I realized that you can’t always be nice towards people. It’s acceptable for you to become someone out of your character every once in a while. Let’s face it, people tend to take your good side for advantage and granted. May it be intentionally or unintentionally, it will happen and keep on happening if you do not learn to step out of the box every once in a while.

With that one tiny step, drastic change will happen not only with your friendship but also your relationship with others.

Giving up on someone who matter to you, it’s too early to tell. “Life goes on” as they say. You’ll lose some, you’ll gain some. It’s a part of life. Cling to those who matter and genuinely treat you well. As for the lost ones, you can never tell. As long as you  know where to stand, you’re good. 

Life should be valued with these old values. Discipline, family, kindness, fairness,courage, persistence, distinction and excellence. With that, you already have the formula for happiness in life as what dad told me. 

As this entry comes to an end, I’m sharing the most pivotal learning I acquired from everything. That is, the sense of gratitude from the man up there who fruitfully shared his wealthy heart to us. Whenever I feel sadness and pessimism, I think of him and the great people he gave  me. That’s when I tell myself, life’s great. 

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Be valiant & strong, do not fear or tremble before them for Yahweh, your God, is with you; he will not leave you or abandon you.  (Deuteronomy 31:6)